Fannish August

Sep. 15th, 2025 06:13 pm
tinny: Song Sanchuan and Liang You'an from Nothing But You kissing in grungy brown-orange coloring and the word 'anchor' (cdrama_nothing_kiss)
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Work pressure didn't let up in August either, so the stress-watching continued.

TV new (finished)


My fascination with Nothing But You has now led me to trying out the leads' back catalogues:

Zhou Yutong was last in Will Love in Spring (on viki here), a 21-ep romance cdrama from 2024, starring Li Xian as her love interest, an embalmer who tries to see everything in life with equanimity and calm after getting into lots of fights in his youth and feeling responsible for his best friend's death. She's a successful sales person and workaholic who was in a car accident when she was 12, where her father died and she lost a leg. The story is very sweetly told, with lots of flashbacks and non-linear cuts. I watched the whole thing within a week and liked it overall. Some of the relationship dynamics and generational conflicts with their parents/grandmother were amazing, but the miscommunication between the leads got on my nerves, as well as the sometimes preachy dialogue about life and death from all characters. CW for death, since that's the theme of the show and some important people die. Last but not least: it gets extra points for having an actually hot sex scene - that's very rare for a het cdrama. There are many happy/cuddly/kiss scenes, too. I should probably make a kissy picspam post. :D

TV new (unfinished)


Amidst a Snowstorm of Love, a 2024 cdrama starring Wu Lei and Zhou Jianmai as successful (i.e. impossibly competent) billiard players. It's on viki. It was filmed in Finland, replete with lots of night scenes and snow everywhere (the BTS about that is funny because apparently it did not snow nearly enough and most of the snow is fake). It's based on a webnovel by MBFB, the same author who wrote Love Me Love My Voice, which was so low on drama it verged on boring, but I sat through the whole thing last year. Lets see if I can do it with the Finnish billiards romance, too. So far Wu Lei's subtle expressions are still holding my attention (and he's soooo pretty), but his character is the older one in the relationship, and he's very stoic, which just isn't Wu Lei. Plus there are some tropes I don't like - and I recognize them as typical for the author: both leads are hyper-competent, they seem to have an inhuman number of hours every day to do their multiple jobs and travel for six hours on top of that, there is a lot of eating/food conversation going on, the man does implausible romantic things for the woman while keeping important things secret from her, all the side characters are in favor of the romance and constantly commenting on it. I went into it expecting pretty much all of it, so it's not too bad. It turns out that watching characters play billiard tournaments is much less interesting than watching people cook (which is what Love Me Love My Voice did), but I have now started watching BTS material, which I found pretty interesting, especially the featurettes on the leads getting proper training in the sport. (Otoh, I have also been watching a ton of Dongji Rescue BTS material, and learning to freedive >> learning to play billiards, just sayin. ;))

I also started reading the novel the drama is based on, trying to figure out if some of the relationship setup things were better in the novel, but it turns out the drama is very very close to the novel, often scene by scene, including dialogue. Which is probably a good thing, because there is only a terrible MTL translation available of the novel (the title is "During the Snowstorm"). I actually needed the drama to explain some of the book scenes to me, because the translation was pretty much incomprehensible. /o\ I did not get to the kiss scenes in the novel yet, but apparently the drama was heavily censored and stripped of eight episodes to meet the episode limit requirements when it aired last year, so maybe there will be some more differences going forward. There are still a *ton* of kiss scenes left in any case.

I started Shine, BeOnCloud and MileApo's new BL (this is only on wetv). They're taking their mission statement to increase Thai soft power seriously and have chosen another political topic: 1960s student protests. I didn't like ep1 much, but have heard that they get better. I found ep2 better than ep1, at least, and have now watched through ep 4, but to me none of the pairings make sense, and I really do not like Mile's character in this. They're sexy together, no question, but I'm not happy about them just being sexually attracted to each other with no other connection - at least one of the couples has a love of literature in common, even though they never seem to agree on its interpretation. I hope I'll be able to finish it, despite the setup screaming tragedy for everyone. Not least because Apo is absolutely gorgeous and doing great in the role and I'm already halfway through anyway.

TV new (dropped)


I started Breeze By The Sea (on viki), a Taiwanese remake of the kdrama „Top Star Yoo Baek“, starring Puff Guo, who I really like. The first two episodes were so bad I had to push myself to continue, which really only worked because I was too tired to think of anything else to watch. It's about a burned-out asshole of a movie star being sent to relax on an island, at a guesthouse the female lead and her grandmother run. He slowly gets entangled with the locals and their problems, and slowly loses his asshole behavior. Unfortunately, that is very strong in the beginning, and I think unforgivable in places, so really wasn't enjoying his redemption as much as the show thought I should. Unfortunately, I also didn't find him attractive, and his acting was so-so. Puff Guo was wonderful as always, but she couldn't really save this on her own. I gave up on it after 7 (of 18) episodes.

Viki peddled My Girlfriend Is The Man! to me, a genderswap kdrama based on a graphic novel. Here on viki. The female lead turns into a man because of a genetic quirk that runs in her family - and episode one already conveniently ignores that everyone knew this was coming for dramatic reasons. Ooof. I made it through almost thee eps, in fits and starts, and then dropped it. It seemed to always do the opposite of what I wanted it to do, gender-wise, while heaping on the embarrassment squick. Yes, it's embarrassing to suddenly have a different gender, but I'm interested in the repercussions for the main characters, not what the sister's friends group thinks about the new hunk, nor her constantly ogling her newly-male sister. Oi. I really wanted to like it. :(

I also tried an ep of Love is for the Dogs (also on viki), but it did not grip me at all. (I'm not a dog person, that might explain it.) It's obviously geared towards animal lovers, with many scenes of cute animals just for the sake of cute animals. If that's your thing, you might like it.

I checked out half an episode of Romance in the Alley, which in Chinese is just "Alley Family" or maybe "The House in the Alley" (Chinese is hard yo), so the romance part is almost certainly false advertising, but it looks interesting at first glance. It's supposedly a slice-of-life show about three families in an industrial town in the 80s. It won a bunch of awards, which is what alerted me to it. I hope I'll have the time/motivation to check out more of it, but the subs are terrible, so probably not. It's on youtube.


TV continued


My watchalong made it through three more eps of When A Snail Falls in Love, and we're mostly enjoying it? I've forgotten almost all the case details since I watched it last in 2018, and we're both enjoying Wang Kai's voice and face. Nothing much to report otherwise.

CDrama Parody: Dream Within a Dream

Sep. 14th, 2025 12:37 pm
tinny: Jake Peralta from Brooklyn Nine-Nine misquoting "eyes closed, head first, can't lose" (b99_jake eyesclosed headfirst)
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I ran across AvenueX recommending A Dream Within a Dream, and watched its first ep. It's a transmigration parody of Chinese costume romance dramas.

Hilariously, I had *just the day before* watched Love Like The Galaxy episode 6, which contained a "rescue the damsel from a fire" scene.

Compare:
screenshots from both shows )

It's virtually identical down to her dress. :D

I can't say I'm enjoying Love Like The Galaxy so far (12 eps in, of 56!), but that first ep of Dream Within a Dream (of 40 total) definitely made me laugh. I'll probably check out more of that.

games games games

Sep. 12th, 2025 02:12 pm
goodbyebird: Angela Asgard's Assassin: Angela carries Sera in her arms. (C ∞ an assassin and her bard)
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+ No Man's Sky had an update adding customizable shared space ships, and now I'll have to jump back in. Anybody else here still play NMS from time to time? Farting around in a communal decorated base sounds like so much fun.

(I saw one ship shaped like Clippy lol)

+ Or if you'd rather base build and hang in a desert planet, Dune Awakening has a free demo weekend. I honestly didn't expect to like it as much as I did, but the environment is lovingly crafted, and the story surprisingly robust.

Sadly I don't have enough internet at sea to dl the update myself. I'm missing out on a stunning mural 😔

I'm on Europe Lynx / Sietch Yaracuwan, it's been fairly free from bothersome trolls. They've added a bunch more events and story characters as well, so I'm diving back in when I get home. In case somebody wants to buddy up for base building? I'll have to start almost from scratch because I suuure didn't put anything in the bank like I ought to have.

+ And Marvel Rivals is adding Angela!! I don't want to be interested in a hero shooter but HOT DAMN

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Two or three photos in this post are horrifically grainy because I messed up the ISO settings on my camera while unboxing. I apologize in advance to your eyes.


Back in 2022, if you were interested in the Chinese scale figure market or non-ero OC figures, you might have come across the prototypes for a set of 1/7 scale figures by then brand-new manufacturer Fluo: Platonica and Luminoustar.

(To skip my rambling and get to the review keep scrolling until you see photos. TL;DR rating is way down at the end.)

Read more... )

LJ IDOL WEEK 9

Sep. 11th, 2025 04:37 pm
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edge·​lord ˈej-ˌlȯrd. plural edgelords. slang. : someone who makes wildly dark and exaggerated statements (as on an internet forum) with the intent of shocking others.


CW: suicide, mental health issues, abuse, murder and violence.


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Her - age 17.

She doesn't care.

She really doesn't.

Not about them, or their opinions.

They act like they disbelieve this of course, and that doesn't shock her. Why would they ever believe their opinion isn't important enough to matter to her?

When she tells them she doesn't care what they think of her, or herlifestyle choices she's met with verbal abuse.

That's their God given right they believe.

At home - courtesy of both controlling parents - sometimes her father's fists if that takes the older man's fancy, or the mother's slaps.

"We brought you into this world, we can take you out of it!"

At school.

From idiots in her class who think high school is gonna matter in the grand scheme of life.

Kids who don't realize it's only important to people like her mom, who peaked at the age of sixteen and eyes up the pool lifeguard in a way that only an unsatisfied wife would. Or like her dad, living for the moment the way too young for them cashier at the market smiles at him- she's just doing her job - and fantasizing that maybe this girl is actually waiting for him to go buy ingredients for meatloaf.

The future is now her teachers keep telling them.

They're exactly one year away from graduating high school. They'll be adults soon. Don't they know they're supposed to have everything figured out by that age?

It's only the rest of their lives, after all.

No pressure.

As a kid whenever anybody asked her what she wanted to do when she grew up, she only ever had one answer.

"I wanna fly."

The adults ether indulged or laughed, depending on the setting.

Bur all she ever dreamed of was being able to fly far,far away from the suburban existence that somehow always felt like a trap.

The adults would never admit it, but they envy her youth.

The honesty she speaks, often brutal in its nature.

Her freedom from the shackles of life in suburbia that bind them to the lives they built out of fear, desire for security or just the simple notion that this would be enough, when in actuality it hasn't been enough for a very long time.

The kids her own age feel a similar way.

Why isn't she worried about the future?

Why does she think she's so special?


The thing is, she doesn't.

The reason she doesn't worry or care about the future?

Because she knows she doesn't have one.

Or rather, she's seen the kind of future available to her, decided she doesn't want it and that none is preferable.

There's no money for college and her grades were never good enough for scholarships. The middle child sandwiched between the golden sister and the baby brother.

A fill in. A ghost. An unfinished page in her parents' perfect life story.

Destined to become a footnote in her own.


Her - age 27.

She cares even less these days which sometimes makes her laugh.

A mirthless one that never reaches that genuine pitch. It's hollow to her own ears. An echo in an empty house. A dog barking in the distance.

A decade is a long time to wear down an already fatigued mind and heart.

The Mustang slices through the desert like a blade in the dark and behind its wheel, she thinks back over everything that led her to this point.

She'd always heard your life flashes before your eyes before dying.

One last trip down memory lane can't hurt.

She thinks of her parents always nagging her for not having any clear goals, for not being more like her siblings, for never caring enough.

Her high school years being the utter inverse of the best days of her life, as she was always informed they would be.

Every dead-end job and relationship she's had.

Some highlights reel.

She sighs, exhaling into the breeze that surrounds her and fans her blonde hair out around her like a halo.

Up ahead the road stretches out before her, seemingly into oblivion, kissing the sky at the edge of the horizon where heat waves bounce.

She swerves when the oncoming car does the same, the other a reluctant player in the game of chicken she initiated.

The other driver loses control and their car flips over, rolling once, then twice before it lands on its roof at the side of the highway.


She laughs, blue eyes meeting her own gaze in the rearview mirror, watching that other car erupt into flames behind her.

In the distance there's the all too familiar wail of sirens that have been tailing her on and off over the past three days.

This seems like as good a time as any to put an end to all this.

She's getting tired now.

In truth, she's been tired for a long time.

The kind of tired that runs bone deep and settles behind your ribcage as a dull ache.

Turning the car around, she accelerates, drives towards the cop cars.

One final game of chicken.

In that final five minutes that encapsulate the end of her short life though, a funny thing happens.

It happens so swiftly that she doesn't even have time to think, just feel.

Truly feel.

It's only when she realizes that this time she is going to die, that she notices how blue the sky is, how the flowering cacti at the side of the road are in bloom, adding color to a sun bleached landscape.

She feels the wind in her hair as her vehicle hits the squad car in a head on collision.

It caresses her skin as he sails through the air, for a brief moment suspended in time, weightless.

"I'm flying," she thinks before her body hits the tarmac.


And she smiles.

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fiction.

After going back and forth on a different idea for this prompt, I chose in the end, to write asubversion of the edgelord, because I'm contrary like that. Rather that this being someone who is being edgy for shock tactics, I wanted it to be someone who is in pain, but no one really cares to see that, because they're too concerned about themselves, and then wind up shocked when the extreme happens.

Inspired in part by growing up in an extremely small and repressed place, some angsty feelings I experienced as a teenager, and a beautiful conversation I had with [personal profile] inkstainedfingertips about one of both our favorite movies, American Beauty. (Thank you for inspiring me <3)
tinny: Song Sanchuan and Liang You'an from Nothing But You kissing in grungy brown-orange coloring and the word 'anchor' (cdrama_nothing_kiss)
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Monthlyinspo was still on summer hiatus, so I had time for another 20in20: Round 18 at [community profile] characters20in20. Again, it's a Nothing But You set - this time of Song Sanchuan. Enjoy!

Teasers:


20+3 icons of Song Sanchuan )

Concrit and comments very welcome! Take and use as many icons as you like, credit is appreciated. If you want to know whose textures and brushes I use, take a look at my resource post.

Previous icon posts:

*casually slides back in*

Sep. 7th, 2025 07:56 am
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Um, hi! Accidentally slipped away from DW again, as one does when the brain decides it's time to visit slump-town. And then it's always tricky to pick back up! But I'm here, having been lured back by a friend request (❤️).

+ Currently working, yay!

+ Currently sick and voice-less, boo!

+ This is a double-shift as I swapped it around to attend my dad's wedding in November. It's in Thailand, and I'll be there a full month. I plan to get absolutely kneaded into oblivion, my body will be jelly by the end of it. Just good food, swimming, and massages.

+ If I can actually manage to Get The Thing Done at home, instead of avoiding and courting disaster, it's sure to be a relaxing time. So I need to get on that, Monday morning *stern glare at self*.

+ Started reading The Archive Undying. It dropped me face first into weirdness, and I'm loving the writing. All very much appreciated.

+ We're at the tail end of the general election here in Norway, and it's looking plausible we could get a RedGreen coalition! I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it could happen.

+ There's a new community for Community, and there's a Friday Five/intro post up, come hang.

+ Really enjoying Haley Williams' Ego Death At A Bachelorette Party and CMAT's EURO-COUNTRY. If you're looking for an absolute banger about grief, Lord, Let That Tesla Crash is at your service.

+ Working my way through Apple this trip, with Foundation being my weekly download. I'd say overall the weakest season of the three, but Demerzel is holding my interest.

+ Tonight should have a red full moon, so I'm hoping it won't be cloudy here.

New Obsession

Sep. 4th, 2025 08:54 am
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Last night I fell down a YouTube rabbit hole thanks to landing on this performance of Bolero by Hayato Sumino. I then proceeded to stay up way too late mainlining his videos. This included not one, not two, but three different performances of Rhapsody in Blue. In my defense, I love Rhapsody in Blue. In my further defense, Sumino's improvisation is a little different each and every time, and I became addicted to seeing where he was going to take it next. The love and joy he has for that piece when playing makes me vicariously happy.

His performance at Royal Albert Hall with the Royal Scottish National Orchestra is my favorite of the three. The surprised titters from the audience when he picks up the melodica and his little smile? Delightful. The interweaving of a cell phone ring into his improv? Brilliant. Ugh, the whole thing is amazing.

(the other two are great as well!)

Other Highlights:

Chopin: Piano Concerto No 1 in E minor, Op. 11 with the Polish National Radio Symphony Orchestra (The fact that my ADHD brain could sit enraptured for 42 minutes is telling.)

Human Universe - one of Sumino's original compositions

Clair de Lune - Unfortunately not a live performance but beautiful all the same

Nocturne I - Pre Rain - another original composition. I love the way he describes it as a gift from the cold sky.

delayed gratification (clinical)

Sep. 3rd, 2025 08:28 am
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Sometimes I get myself overwhelmed by the most nonsensical things. For some reason, my brain will file certain enjoyable activities under responsibilities it needs to fear and avoid, which is also why I will sometimes drop off the face of the earth for friends, family, and the various online communities I haunt. Last year wasn’t a good one for me mental health wise and a lot of nice things fell under the radar, but life is slowly improving and I’m trying to pick up where I left off.

That brings me to Honey, Honey by slimeaudit.

This fic has been in my backlog for months because I wanted to be able to… feel joy again, I guess, before I read it. Yesterday, I decided, was the day and goddamn I feel like reading it last December would have cured my depression instantly. Okay, maybe that’s a bit much, but oh my god, does it hit the spot. Honey/Molina is honestly the luckiest rarepair ship I’ve ever had because while we only have a few fics I’m blessed by the density of in-character, well-written stories that also match a ton of my headcanons/personal fanon. How amazing is that?

I ended up spamming a bunch of half-coherent comments under Honey, Honey that I hope won’t bother the author and I’m honestly frustrated with myself for depriving myself of it for almost a year. Although, if I’m realistic I really wasn’t in the right headspace to truly enjoy it like I do now and part of the frustration comes from not having been able to express my appreciation to the author when they posted their fics—oh yeah, plural. I don’t even know if they’re still around or interested in the ship.

The sucky part about tiny fandoms is that great stuff flies under the radar and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.

Well now I’ve made myself sad, lol. Anyways, you shoud read slimeaudit’s Wolf fics, because they are very good and will not make you sad.